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Name: Catherine
Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Abilene
Birthday: 12/12/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: going to school is my life right now.. ACU BABY!Being in Abilene Texas the things i do on a regular basis have changed...i ride horses, rope cowboys and all the country things...haha NO..i love doing anything thats fun...but i have found that rodeos arent all that bad.. Riding 4 wheelers has become something that i LOVE to do..the wind in your hair...the bugs squashing on your face, the taste of dirt in your mouth...what could possibly be better than that? Thats what i thought!!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
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AIM:  crc1212
Member Since:
12/1/2004
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| Life is good, and God has blessed me with amazing friends and a great boyfriend. | | |
| There comes a time in your life when your sitting down and you realize the world that your actually living in. Is it the life you want to be living? I find myself contradicting myself all the time. As much as I don't want a relationship, and I know that I don't need one; I have a longing in my heart for someone to love me again. I know people love me, but I mean in the romantic-one day we are going to get married way. I had that feeling before and now I miss it. I DONT miss the guy..just the feeling. to know that someone was always there for me, that with just one smile could change my whole day; whenever anything went wrong..I would be content in his arms. That's what I miss. I know that Jesus can do that for me..and I don't want to sound "un-chrisitan" but I'm a tangible kind of person. I have been focusing my life more and Him and have given up some things that are extremely hard for me to give up. I have to remind myself of what I have given up. So if your wondering..I gave up persuing guys. And that may not seem like THAT hard of thing but for me it is. I will say that I am naturally a flirt. I don't try and flirt..its just my personality. So along with pursuing guys, I am trying to not flirt. but have you ever been in a situation where you really like someone, and all you can do is sit back and watch..and as your watching you know its not going to end up how you want. so you want to do something about it..but you cant. I feel like I'm watching a soap opera of my life..and my heart is hurting. ok so I am an emotional basket case..And I'm not the type to ask out a guy.I have been on one date this semester, but that was kind of a setup cause the guy needed a date and I obliged. and yes, I had a great time on that date..but is anything gonna come out of it? probably not..I'm not saying that I like him or anything (cause I only went out with him once) but I wouldnt mind getting to know him because he seems like an amazing guy that I could see myself dating. But I sit back and watch..and nothing happens. and life isn't all about love and relationships and yes I get that..but..IM A GIRL. that's the end of the ride into my emotional crazy self. | | |
| what is going on..am i actually posting?? is anyone going to read it? i guess ill find out. ok..so my life has been in full swing and is a lot different from my last post. Ken and I are back together and ENGAGED...HAH YAAA RIGHT! but my heart has healed and im so grateful for that. God has been helping me through everything, and i can finally see where he was leading my life..i didnt need him in my life, and it wasnt in Gods plan. School is still school- meaning: i still need prayers for that! my girls have been a HUGE blessing to me this year and have been very understanding. they have helped me through more than they even know. for the new year i have given up pursuing guys..so guys..if you want me..your gonna have to come and get me, cause im not coming after you!! haha. but so far,so good. im proud of myself. xmas break at home was fun like usual. a lot is changing there too, and so far its for the better. people are getting older, wiser and everyone is just growing up. oh back to school- being a KAIO was worth all the pledging because i am with an amazing group of girls (plus we get to go to fun events!) well im pretty tired, so i think im gonna sleep..but i will update you in about another 4 months! | | |
| wow..where to begin..i have had my heart broken, stressed out beyond belief, and a lot of personal issues going on with me. School is a pain in my butt!!! sometimes i question being a nurse, but i know it is something that i will love. so ken broke up with me last thursday..the 6th i believe it was..i was devastated and said a lot of things to him that i probably shouldnt have, but he broke my heart and hurt me so incredibly bad..the first guy i loved. the thing that hurt the worst was that he was in abilene the weekend before for grub, and he told me thursday night that he had been thinking about it for a couple weeks! so he came to grub, spent the weekend with me, and acted like everything was ok..so how was i supposed to know that it was going to end? 7 months..wow..a long time.. i was so in love and then had no one to love. BUT- i am doing much better now. i had a great weekend, with my girls and some of them good ol HSU boys. i have to keep my head up and know that this was Gods plan and that he has something better for me..so as for pledging all i have to say is..its sucks..if i were to redo it...i dont think i would pledge..so all of this stuff going on better be worth it in the end! | | |
| So this week has been filled with: a long talk with my girls-sharing our hearts, a HUGE anatomy and physiology test  , skipping 2 classes (opps! haha), getting a bid from Alpha Kai-WOHOO! IM A KAIO!, going to bid night from 430 pm-730 am!!, buying things at Walmart for club, and whole bunch more! i know some pepople may say that you will forget your friends that arent in club with you..but thats not gonna happen! Summer- we will always love you and be friends with you- but this next month may not express that, but dont doubt us..because after it is all over we will have a girls night!! well enough for now! love yall | | |
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